So...we are back in the field
after a few days in the mission home. I got to disinfect all of my
clothes, but they got washed with DOWNY, so they smell super great. The
showers and cold air were nice and I did have a lot of time to study but
nothing compares to the sound of a font filling up. I didn't get to work until
Saturday, one
of my very best friends was sent home for a medical emergency and
another sister may have to change missions for medical reasons.
It is SO good to be back at
work. I made it to the baptism this week. Jordan got baptized on Saturday and then Sunday he was confirmed and ordained a Deacon. Next week he will
pass the Sacrament. We have 4 baptisms planned for this week; Samantha,
Andres, Rosario and Milagros. They are all doing wonderful. Even with the
baptisms, the week was pretty rough.
This week I studied a lot
about the desires of our heart and how we all have agency and how we
need to exercise it. I was studying and realized that sometimes I pray
to have peace with God's decisions. This is a good habit but I was not exercising
my own agency. We can make decisions and then pray for guidance and
direction. If we are truly in tune with the Spirit our desires will be
the same as God's. For me, this was a difficult thing to learn and I
will need to continue to practice-but I have seen a difference in my
attitude towards the things that happen here on the mission.
We all make choices, and to
quote Rush (the band...not Limbaugh):
If you choose not to decide, you still
have made a choice…
I will choose a path that's clear,
I will choose freewill.
We have agency and we are
free to use it. It’s a really great gift that we have. I hope that I will be
able to continue to grow closer to my Heavenly Father so that I can be
more in line with His will. I want His will to be my will, I want to be
like Nephi.
One of my favorite passages
in the Book of Mormon is 2 Nephi chapter 2. This is right after Lehi
dies and Nephi is pouring out his soul. It really means a lot to me to
know that prophets have struggles too. It’s not all daisies and butterflies and
talking with God.
Remember to be like Nephi,
quake at the sight of sin, and repent daily.
Much love from the Amazon!
Hermana Haley Burrell